Where I am at

I so have not been in a hooping mood, considering all of the loss I have been experiencing.

Which is odd, because hooping has gotten me through some very difficult times.

I guess these events are proving to be most difficult, especially if you think about how hooping was one of the ways I coped with going through with my divorce.

Maybe there is some sort of subconscious stigma (as in the guilt that I carried for deciding to divorce my ex and now the guilt I feel towards his death.) attached to hooping in regards to healing myself over his death.  I will find ways to self punish at times.

I have no idea if this makes any sense.

I’ve also been extremely busy with another show I am doing.  It’s been a whirlwind of rehearsals rehearsals rehearsals!  Normally, you have about a month and a half to two months to rehearse.  This show was all last minute and we were given maybe 3 wks at the most to prepare.

Opening night is this Friday, and i am just exhausted.  If you don’t count the 5-6 hours of sleep at night, I have probably been home for less than an hour each day during the span of rehearsals.

I miss my cat.

I am also, once again, going through the same old shit with the guy I was dating.  Which I have been bitching about elsewhere.

But it’s not like I have abandoned the hoop entirely.

I was asked to do another Burlesque show towards the end of April, and so I have been more inclined to pick up my hoop for about 5 mins here and there when we have downtime at the theater.

I have a song narrowed down, but not sure of the theme.  I came across this and thought it was just absolutely adorable and fun, and was thinking of maybe doing a variation of something like this.  Not the exact routine mind you (or song) because I can barely lift my leg out of the hoop (let alone take my socks off) but I like the silly over the top exaggerated sexual-ness of this character.  I would like to incorporate this sort of schtick with Joan Jett’s “Do You Wanna Touch?”.  I think I can make it real campy and fun.

and I think that the extra big panties are just too much fun as well.  😛

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Juliet
    Mar 08, 2012 @ 16:47:53

    I love burlesque hooping, that video and the panties too! Ive been battling through depression and using the hoop to self-medicate. I found that I cannot even think about vein motivated ..it becomes a big thing. I just find small intervals to pick up the hoop and sometimes they turn into practice sessions. Hope you find peace anyway you can get it.

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  2. pixiegirlkc52
    Mar 08, 2012 @ 18:27:40

    I hear you. Its getting over that mental hurdle. Innately I know that once I get in my hoop and move around, I will feel better. . . yet the depressed me fights the logical me every step of the way.
    Thank you for the kind words. 🙂

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